[He hits send by accident, then throws his watch at the pillow. It feels like a tantrum welling up, no no no; he clenches his fists and wants to throw punches, weak desperate ones against the awful aching realization. But no. It's not Kakyoin's fault. It's his. He should have just asked the direct question. He shouldn't have been afraid of it, but it was and now Kakyoin is talking about him, him and Gold Experience, and he doesn't want to be him and Gold Experience, he doesn't want that.]
[He waits until his fingers stop shaking, then reaches out for the watch again.]
well carlos would agree with you. maybe you should compare notes.
[It comes out more bitter than he means it to. But there's no taking it back, and anyway, he's not sure he wants to take it back at all.]
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[Are you lonely, Gold Experience?]
[He hits send by accident, then throws his watch at the pillow. It feels like a tantrum welling up, no no no; he clenches his fists and wants to throw punches, weak desperate ones against the awful aching realization. But no. It's not Kakyoin's fault. It's his. He should have just asked the direct question. He shouldn't have been afraid of it, but it was and now Kakyoin is talking about him, him and Gold Experience, and he doesn't want to be him and Gold Experience, he doesn't want that.]
[He waits until his fingers stop shaking, then reaches out for the watch again.]
well carlos would agree with you. maybe you should compare notes.
[It comes out more bitter than he means it to. But there's no taking it back, and anyway, he's not sure he wants to take it back at all.]