[It couldn't be so simple as to keep coming down to whether or not to use it, to how to hold oneself accountable and draw rigid lines that couldn't be crossed. There was no way it was that simple. And if it was such good advice (which Kakyoin knew it was) why didn't he feel any better about it?]

I think...more than figuring out what to do with this, I just...

[What was the real problem here? Kakyoin hesitated, Hierophant pulling off of him to form over his shoulder, arms draped loosely around his neck.]

...want to understand why. I don't hate or fear Hierophant for what we can do, I just...want to know why this is part of myself.