I stop at thinking that I can because if I start asking myself how, I feel like I'll want to start screaming and never stop. Like examining that too closely is just going to make me completely snap and give up.
When I first got here, I was pretty convinced this was it too. But it just didn't make sense, I mean look at me, I'm still breathing right now. Am I really just supposed to accept that someday I might just...
[But he had to accept it, didn't he? Any of them could just leave with no warning. And for some, that was a problem with much more finality than others. Kakyoin folded his arms, glancing away for just a second or two while he tried collecting himself again.]
...I understand Buccellati's perspective. I don't know with certainty that any of us can fix this, and I know what it feels like to think there's no point in anything if we can't.
['I won't ask him to love someone that probably doesn't have a future.' Hadn't Kakyoin said that himself once, maybe just a little over a year ago?]
...But that means that I really don't know how to help, either.
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Date: 2016-10-03 10:10 pm (UTC)When I first got here, I was pretty convinced this was it too. But it just didn't make sense, I mean look at me, I'm still breathing right now. Am I really just supposed to accept that someday I might just...
[But he had to accept it, didn't he? Any of them could just leave with no warning. And for some, that was a problem with much more finality than others. Kakyoin folded his arms, glancing away for just a second or two while he tried collecting himself again.]
...I understand Buccellati's perspective. I don't know with certainty that any of us can fix this, and I know what it feels like to think there's no point in anything if we can't.
['I won't ask him to love someone that probably doesn't have a future.' Hadn't Kakyoin said that himself once, maybe just a little over a year ago?]
...But that means that I really don't know how to help, either.