I've never really stopped to think about that before. Now that you point it out, it seems...painfully obvious.
It's probably a little twisted to say that I'm used to being unhappy or anything like that, but...I'd rather it was me than him. I know I can handle it, and I know he shouldn't have to. None of us should, but if any of us had to then I'd be fine with it.
I got in some trouble over that a while ago. Not exactly the same thing, but that was part of it. I'm still getting the hang of being careful about it. Not quickly enough, apparently.
You could look at it like that, or you could look at it as a matter of finding better ground to stand on somewhere before 'prioritizing other people before yourself.'
Something like that, yeah. I think we both just need...I don't know, some way to slap sense into ourselves so we remember to worry about ourselves, too.
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Date: 2015-12-04 06:50 am (UTC)I came here to talk about my plan. But now I think that might be stupid. Maybe . . .
It really does change things, doesn't it? If you grow up feeling alone or if you don't. It changes how you handle hard times.
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Date: 2015-12-04 06:59 am (UTC)It's probably a little twisted to say that I'm used to being unhappy or anything like that, but...I'd rather it was me than him. I know I can handle it, and I know he shouldn't have to. None of us should, but if any of us had to then I'd be fine with it.
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Date: 2015-12-04 07:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-04 07:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-04 07:16 am (UTC)Sometimes. Most of the time. So I do think it is the same thing, what you said and what's happening now.
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Date: 2015-12-04 07:22 am (UTC)It probably is the same thing, more or less.
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Date: 2015-12-04 08:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-04 01:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-04 02:28 pm (UTC)[Son, your perfectionism is showing.]
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Date: 2015-12-04 02:38 pm (UTC)[?????]
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Date: 2015-12-05 07:33 am (UTC)[He taps his fingers together, looking a little uncertain.]
But it's difficult for someone in my position to make mistakes like that. Don't you think?
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Date: 2015-12-05 02:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-05 10:12 pm (UTC)Then it's got to be a matter of damage control?
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Date: 2015-12-05 10:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-05 10:21 pm (UTC)That's what we did after Diavolo died. That was the first thing, even before the funerals. Real estate is important.
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Date: 2015-12-05 10:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-12-05 11:06 pm (UTC)[In case you were wondering, Kakyoin.]
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Date: 2015-12-05 11:09 pm (UTC)[you dumb kids]
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Date: 2015-12-05 11:24 pm (UTC)