It was stupid, the way he got me. He told me he could help me find my sister's killer. That if I helped him, he'd help me. And that one moment of hesitation, that was all he needed. You don't think that's worth blaming?
...Because all he had to say to me was 'let's be friends'. And I was so scared of him that I couldn't fight back. Call it stupid all you want, he at least gave you a reason to stop and think about it first.
[He crosses his arms, fully committed to this now.]
And you were lonely, and you were scared, and you were seventeen. You didn't accept his friendship, you didn't act out of your free will. He had to control you-- force you-- before you'd do what he wanted.
[There. Polnareff draws in, aware he's right, aware that he has to make his point now, because who knows when any of this will come up again.]
Blame him. Blame him because he forced us both to do things we'd find dishonorable, that we'd never do otherwise. But don't blame yourself, because you did nothing wrong. All you're guilty of is facing someone you had no way of defending against.
[He faltered again, gripping his jacket's sleeves. Objectively, he knew Polnareff was correct. The trick was in kicking himself into actually believing it.]</small.
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Date: 2016-03-21 10:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-03-21 10:38 pm (UTC)[He tips his head, regarding him.]
It was stupid, the way he got me. He told me he could help me find my sister's killer. That if I helped him, he'd help me. And that one moment of hesitation, that was all he needed. You don't think that's worth blaming?
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Date: 2016-03-21 11:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-03-21 11:59 pm (UTC)[He crosses his arms, fully committed to this now.]
And you were lonely, and you were scared, and you were seventeen. You didn't accept his friendship, you didn't act out of your free will. He had to control you-- force you-- before you'd do what he wanted.
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Date: 2016-03-22 12:06 am (UTC)[He looked away at that, folding his arms.]
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Date: 2016-03-22 12:14 am (UTC)Blame him. Blame him because he forced us both to do things we'd find dishonorable, that we'd never do otherwise. But don't blame yourself, because you did nothing wrong. All you're guilty of is facing someone you had no way of defending against.
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Date: 2016-03-22 12:33 am (UTC)[He faltered again, gripping his jacket's sleeves. Objectively, he knew Polnareff was correct. The trick was in kicking himself into actually believing it.]</small.
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Date: 2016-03-22 12:37 am (UTC)And if I have to, I'll tell you that every day til you believe it. Because it's true.
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Date: 2016-03-22 12:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-03-22 12:53 am (UTC)Now say that again, but on tape so I can whip it out whenever you start fussing at me.
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Date: 2016-03-22 01:09 am (UTC)