Can you really say that, and then turn around and call me some kind of "source of hope", like you were saying the other day? I'm not any more special than you are.
[Kakyoin tugged on the jacket's collar again, half hiding his face before hesitantly continuing.]
I kept calling you that when we were fighting, but that wasn't...me. You and I both know I wasn't the one speaking back then. When I was myself again, I switched to calling you 'Jotaro' for the most part.
But before long I thought that...I wanted to be able to call you that because I chose to, rather than out of compulsion or mind control. I didn't want it to be irritating, so I only did it on occasion--but you never seemed to mind it, so I guess it's become a habit by now.
...It's not really 'okay' or anything like that, but I...think that I can talk about it at this point. If you ever--I don't know, if you thought I was hiding from it or anything like that, I'm not.
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Date: 2015-09-10 05:41 am (UTC)[It was a simple question, maybe almost infuriatingly so, but it came quietly and went straight for the heart of the matter.]
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Date: 2015-09-10 05:48 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2015-09-10 06:33 am (UTC)[He shook his head, looking at the floor.]
...sorry. You're right, it's probably not fair of me to look at it that way.
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Date: 2015-09-10 04:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 04:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 05:11 pm (UTC)[...]
And you don't look like a delinquent. Or if you do, you look like just enough of one to be cool.
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Date: 2015-09-10 05:30 pm (UTC)[He smiled a little hesitantly.]
Thanks.
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Date: 2015-09-10 07:14 pm (UTC)[Said the awkward prince of awkward, awkwardly.]
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Date: 2015-09-10 07:16 pm (UTC)What day in February?
[oh you're in trouble now]
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Date: 2015-09-10 07:25 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2015-09-10 07:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 07:40 pm (UTC)[hm.]
Is it okay that I call you the same thing they do? I just realized that I never thought about whether or not it would be annoying.
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Date: 2015-09-10 07:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 08:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 08:09 pm (UTC)[He fell quiet a minute, eyes a little narrow in thought as he seemed to mull over the question.]
It's different when you do it. It doesn't bother me.
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Date: 2015-09-10 08:25 pm (UTC)[Kakyoin tugged on the jacket's collar again, half hiding his face before hesitantly continuing.]
I kept calling you that when we were fighting, but that wasn't...me. You and I both know I wasn't the one speaking back then. When I was myself again, I switched to calling you 'Jotaro' for the most part.
But before long I thought that...I wanted to be able to call you that because I chose to, rather than out of compulsion or mind control. I didn't want it to be irritating, so I only did it on occasion--but you never seemed to mind it, so I guess it's become a habit by now.
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Date: 2015-09-10 08:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 08:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 08:47 pm (UTC)Even with everything going on, I would've noticed if he'd used something different.
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Date: 2015-09-10 08:51 pm (UTC)[...]
Honestly, there's no way for me to explain much of anything I said or did back then.
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Date: 2015-09-10 08:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-10 09:06 pm (UTC)[...]
...It's not really 'okay' or anything like that, but I...think that I can talk about it at this point. If you ever--I don't know, if you thought I was hiding from it or anything like that, I'm not.
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Date: 2015-09-10 09:44 pm (UTC)[...]
Do you worry a lot, about what I think about you?
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