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[lapidarius]

"This is Kakyoin Noriaki. Please leave a message, I'll contact you as soon as I can."

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[mylegacy]

Are you drawing now?

[lapidarius]

I was, before you sent that. Now I'm copying those charts so I have them when I'm not carrying my pocketwatch. Why?

[mylegacy]

I was just wondering. I don't really have anything interesting to say, and you never talk about your art.

[lapidarius]

Most of what I do is painting, but lately I've realized it's a hell of a lot more practical to carry around a pen and notebook. I'm way out of practice, so I've just kind of been sketching at random.

[mylegacy]

People? Animals?

[lapidarius]

Mostly people. I'm really not all that talented, just kind of an amateur.

[mylegacy]

Why do you always do that?

[lapidarius]

Do what?

[mylegacy]

Take every opportunity to talk about how inadequate you feel you are.

[lapidarius]

I didn't

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I don't know. I'm trying to stop doing that.

[mylegacy]

Do you not realize you do it?

[lapidarius]

I never used to do it much, if at all. For the past few months or so it's just kind of developed into an unfortunate habit tied to an unfortunate perspective.

Like I said. I'm working on it the best that I can.

[mylegacy]

I wasn't criticizing. I wouldn't know how to work on it in the first place.

[lapidarius]

To be honest, I'm not really sure either. I guess I'm just trying to remember what it felt like when I was actually confident. Or at least try to find a point where I wasn't just pretending to be.

[mylegacy]

Do you think you can be both at the same time? Confident and not.

[lapidarius]

Yeah. I think it might even be better that way in some cases. Being completely confident about something tends to lead into acting like an idiot, so having some level of doubt might be better to keep someone grounded.

[mylegacy]

Or it might make you doubt yourself in the situations where you shouldn't, and then get cocky when you should think twice.

[lapidarius]

I guess it would depend on the circumstances, really.

[mylegacy]

Does everybody think about this kind of thing but me?

[lapidarius]

I don't know. I think a lot in general, that's kind of what I do.

[lapidarius]

[. . .]

I don't really know about you, but I could probably stand to get out for a while. So on the off chance you wanted to meet up somewhere, I think I could do that.

[mylegacy]

Isn't it supposed to be dangerous out at night?

[lapidarius]

I can kill or disable just about anything within fifty meters and I'm pretty sure you can handle yourself just as well. Do you honestly think we'd be in any real danger?

[mylegacy]

I don't know. Maybe it's just me not thinking again.

Tell me where to meet you.